Just a follow-up

[meezergal]

Or perhaps follow-through would be a better term. I made an appointment to see my old therapist next Wednesday. I HATE the thought of going--I simply HATE ripping out my guts and mucking around in them, though I know I'll probably feel better afterward.

Oh, Kris--the doctor increased my dose of Luvox, as far as antidepressants go. I was on a low dose for the fibromyalgia, and he simply raised it to an actual "theraputic" dose. We'll see how it works--so far, it hasn't made me feel any better, but that sort of thing takes time.

Also, I have decided that I'm taking riding lessons, no matter what else I have to give up. Part of my depression is from not riding. Sure, I love Tiki and love just being with him, but I miss riding with a pain that is one of the most profound I've ever experienced. Riding is therapy. Riding keeps me going. IT IS WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT.

I NEED, mentally and physically, to ride again. I HAVE to. I hope that Tiki will be well enough for me to ride eventually, but in the meantime, I'll find other horses to ride.

Thank you, everyone, for being there for me... *hugs*

Comments

[renoir-girl.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

It sounds like you're doing good things for yourself. Congratulations. :-)

[benkenobigal.livejournal.com]

{HUGS!} to you!

I know you'll feel better after talking with your therapist. I hope he/she helps you out quickly. :)